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September 27, 2005

Wherefore Art Thou, Jake?*

I’ve been rather AWOL with this site lately, and as there’s always been a slight journal tangent on this blog, I figure I’ll clue you all in. Chronologically, no less.

First, I suppose I write a little less cuz I talk a little more. Sometimes I don’t spend the time spitting at the keys cuz I know that Thursday afternoon I’ll be snarling at the mic. I do my radio show almost every week, and ranting out loud to an invisble audience is satisfying in a different way than ranting in type to invisible readers (by the way, if you don’t listen to the show, at least listen to the radio theme song I made, the link’s over on the right, under “Jake Jake Jake”). So some of that writing is done sonically, so does not appear in letters on this page.

Secondly, I had a bad week about a month ago which has pushed me in new directions. I was so overwhelmed with the number of duties, projects, tasks, responsibilities and chores piled up around me, that I pretty much spent the entire week in a daze. Not only did I manage to accomplish almost nothing, but I spent that week feeling a unsettling combo of confusion, irritation, anxiety and sadness. Nothing overwhelming, mind you, but just a disjointed, unpleasant funk that kind of melted into everything.

So I resolved that I could not let this happen again. I couldn’t let a whole week get away from me, I couldn’t spend all that time feeling confused and powerless. I needed to get Organized. My usual modus operandi of making it up as I go along was finally starting to fail me**, and I was going to have to join the real world of calendars and lists and goals and sticky notes.

So I made up some pretty large lists of do’s and don’t’s for my future, covering a vast array of actvities, including work, exercise, eating, shopping, leisure, finances, etc. Which sounds anal, but I figured that since I’d only fully absorb a fraction of this list, the more in-depth the list, the more habits I was likely to change.

So far, the List has done me good. More exercise, more focus at work, slightly healthier eating, mild cuts in video game play, more time spent re-learning Spanish (1 hour a week instead of no hours a week). And the List will evolve, of course.

So there we are. Jake Making Life Changes. Probably not enough of them, but it’s a start.

Third, I now have another job. Which, by my count, brings me up to five part-time jobs, three of which pay (up from the former 4 and 2). I am writing for a subdivision of Amnesty International USA called Music for Human Rights. It’s funny, the opportunity dropped into my lap just as I was thinking of giving up the whole “get paid to write” thing.

(Of course, this does exacerbate the previously mentioned “so many projects Jake gets confused and doesn’t know what to do” problem)

Fourth, I just got a new computer (with my Writing Advance Check. Look at me, I’s a professional). And since I’m a big geek, this means I’ll spend way too much time exploring it, tweaking it out, rubbing it with fragrant oils, that sorta thing. So I might stay missing a little while yet.

I also have several other schemes sizzling in the old brainpan, but I dare not speak of them just yet…

Not entirely sure why I wrote all this (or why you read it). I guess it’s good to chronicle some things, and sometimes telling people your plans helps you stick to them.

*Yes, I’m aware that that “wherefore art thou?” does not mean “where are you?”, but thanks for making the joke less funny, jerkass.

**Well, to be honest, I really got very little sleep that week. It’s entirely possible that I’m making these life changes for all the wrong reasons, and that going to bed earlier would sort me out just fine.

Posted by Jake on September 27, 2005 12:12 am


  1. Wah. Wah. Wah.

    Comment by Juanito Cordova Dolanski — September 27, 2005 @ 4:23 pm

  2. Wah, wah, and more wah.

    Comment by Juanito Cordova Dolanski — September 27, 2005 @ 4:24 pm

  3. I think someone needs to see a therapist…

    Comment by Tess — September 27, 2005 @ 4:56 pm

  4. I hope things get better for you. I really suck at keeping lists… and seeing a therapist won’t hurt.

    Comment by Tess — September 28, 2005 @ 10:04 am

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